From the Author's Desk: Revealing the Real Me

Well, here we are again. Another week of broadcasting out into the void, just waiting for someone to discover there’s a blog here.

In my defense, I have told no one about this blog. I kind of wanted to find my ‘voice’ before announcing it to the world. The problem is that I am a rather sarcastic person with a dark sense of humor, and I don’t want to scare people off.

When I try to come across as happy and upbeat, though, I think I come across as:

a) boring

b) stiff

c) did I mention the boring part?

Yep, reading back over my last few blog posts has been painful. And if you have just recently stumbled in here and read them…I’m sure it’s about as much fun for you as watching grass grow or paint dry.

Let’s face it. Happy and upbeat is just not who I am.

So let’s try something different.

Here’s the real me and my real thoughts.

Writing this blog post is hard. Writing a book is hard. Writing a book series is hard. Writing is just…hard.

Don’t get me wrong. I love to write. It’s just...hard.

I think there are a couple of things going on with me right now that have me in a mood. A moody mood, as it were.

First, it’s winter. And I am never upbeat in the winter. I hate this time of year. It’s like you survive all the holiday stuff and then BAM, it’s a new year and a new you, only nothing really changed and it’s the same ole sh*t, we’ve just crossed over an imaginary line out there somewhere that says it’s a bright new year.

Second, I’m still dealing with some medical stuff right now and have been since last September. It’s gotten old and I am so over it. SO over it. It’s a long story, which I’ll save for another time, but let’s just say dealing with all of it makes me feel like my entire life is on hold until I can get on the other side of it.

Then there’s the writing stuff. Book Two of The Grim Reaper Chronicles is due at the end of this month. I am making some actual progress on it (finally) and I’m happy with how it’s going, but... life keeps getting in the way.

A big part of it, of course, is the medical stuff that’s eating up all my time. Doctor appointments, and dealing with insurance, and having tests run (Oh, my!), but it’s also the constant interruptions from family who don’t understand that when you’re writing you have to be ‘in the zone,’ and that to stay there requires peace and quiet. Emphasis on the quiet part.

Then there’s the day job...which is also writing, but a completely different kind of writing (I’m not only an author, I’m a copywriter~~~SURPRISE!) and some days, it just sucks the very life right out of me.

So...yeah, I’m not a real happy camper right now. I’m sleep deprived. I miss the sun. I’m worried about what my next medical test (which has been postponed once already due to an insurance issue) because it will determine what kind of surgery I am going to need. It’s all just...

...a lot, I guess.

Until next time,

~CA~